enraged by jealousy

Ever have one of those moments where you see someone do something, or read something that someone's written and just become so enraged, not because you disagree with them but because you wish you felt the same way? God, I'm so flipping tired. Sometimes, I just feel like I keep going because everyone needs me to keep going, keep pulling through. 99.99% of the time I know they're right, it's just those lonely few moments incapsulated in that .01% that really make me wonder. I really wish I wasn't afraid. Happy Valentine's Day. "When arrows don't penetrate, cupid  grabs the pistol." I just want to take your breath away.