Depending on which of my friends you ask, and depending on their level of intoxication, you could get the impression that I've either had a really hard life, or a really easy one. Being completely honest though, I've rarely had a weak moment where I've sat and uttered the words, "my life has been horrible" or "man, my life has been really great", I've always just fought the battle on a day-to-day basis.
I'm reading a new book, Flat, Hot, and Crowded by Thomas Friedman. Part of his introduction explains America's growing new mentality of being " as dumb as we want to be". I've honestly never felt ashamed of the fact that I never intend on finishing college until today. I know I'm the type of person who's expected to make a difference at some point. Whether that expectation comes from my own soul, or the souls of the people who are closest to me, it's an expectation I intend to fulfill. "Dumb as we want to be", agh, that really gets to me. I don't believe college is necessary for everyone, I certainly don't think it's the right decision for me personally. Yet, here I sit, feeling obligated to finish school, to fulfill some societal requirement, some imaginary checkbox,a little Nike swoosh through a perfect square, sure to remain unchecked for years to come.
I finally figured out a good idea for my first "book". I'll see if I have the strength to carry it to fruition, I'm not sure I could commit social suicide and leave my friends and family though. Maybe it's worth it. Then again, The Grove, and Third Street Promenade would be leaving people behind too.
btw, 2 photos on Tom's blog in one day have reinforced my dying desire to get back on my weight-loss regime. Tom's stupid blog(kidding, love iamcup) and an un-nameable but amazingly good friend are my two main motivators in losing this last 60 pounds or so.
I've smiled more in the last 5 months than I thought I would in a lifetime. Thanks boo.
1 comment:
I'm smiling because your indents are always the correct length.
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